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­­What a Simple Email Taught Me About Love

photo: Jennifer Donley on flickr

Have you ever found yourself in the position of doing something less than loving?

I’m sure you haven’t – I’m sure you’re totally loving all the time.

But me? Not so much.

People who know me might be surprised by this comment, but it’s true. Oh sure, I may appear all nice and copasetic on the outside, but sometimes I’m grouchy on the inside.

photo: Mindaugas Danys on flickr

My grouchiness usually takes the form of petty affront:

I can’t believe she just said that! I can’t believe he’s getting away with that!

You know – good old fashioned resentment.

I especially notice this resentment when I’m alone. Perhaps because I can hear my thoughts more clearly. Or perhaps because I’m alone with my internal baggage.

phioto: Bill Ward on flickr

Whatever the case, the other day I happened to catch a ripe little resentment in reaction to an email.

Email is fertile soil for our unhealed wounding. There’s so much room for misunderstanding and misinterpretation.

Who hasn’t found themselves in the position of being offended by an email that, in the end, wasn’t meant to be offensive? And who hasn’t sent an email that someone interpreted to be wicked and cruel, when that wasn’t your intention at all?

photo: danny O. on flickr

In this case, I was writing an email to an acquaintance. I don’t know her very well, but I thought I remembered that she’s not a fan of lower-case emails.

You know what I’m talking about, right?

those emails that are written like this. because it’s just way too hard to press that shift button and capitalize the first letter of your sentence. either that, or you’re displaying your humbleness/low self-esteem by your choice of only modest, lower-case letters.

I have to admit: sometimes i’m a lower-case only kinda gal. it feels good. it feels like i’m playing hooky, or walking around barefoot. i feel wild and freaky and free.

photo: Jon Rawlinson on flickr

But this person I was writing was not an admirer of lower-case ways. At least, I didn’t think she was. From what I remembered, she found it lazy. And improper.

I once got chewed out by a now-ex-friend for writing him an email in lower-case letters.

He was livid that I didn’t have enough respect for him to capitalize the first letters of my sentences. Luckily, I did have enough respect for myself not to keep him in the Friend category.

see ya later. seriously.

But back to my email. I wasn’t completely sure that this acquaintance hated lower-case livin’, but I was pretty sure she did.

which is why i was writing her an email in lower-case.

Yup, I’m naughty. It’s true.

photo: Ibrahim Iujaz on flickr

Something about knowing that this person didn’t like lower-case expression made me want to use it even more. To assert my freedom and individuality. Or something like that.

I got as far as putting my finger on the “Send” button, when something made me stop.

What the heck was I doing? Why was I insisting on writing her in lower-case?

To prove a point? To show her she was wrong?

What was I hoping to accomplish?

What if she’d been someone I was in love with? What would I do then?

photo: LordKhan on flickr

Well, I’d probably ensure that every aspect of the email would bring joy to my beloved. I wouldn’t be adding covert elements in attempt to annoy her.

And here’s the tricky part:

Everyone is my beloved. 

Sometimes it’s hard to accept this. Especially when some portion of the beloved population is bringing me grief. But it’s true.

And here’s something else:

I’m more likely to perceive everyone as my beloved if I treat them as such.

photo: David Goehring on flickr

So that’s what I did. I got out my typing fingers, and I went back and capitalized the first letter of each of my sentences.

I felt like I was addressing her with tenderness and care. I felt open and compassionate. And these were just capital letters, no big deal!

But it was a big deal.

I was moving past my resentment and making an effort to play nice. And it felt good.

For all I know, this acquaintance doesn’t really hate lower-case existence. Maybe she actually lets her hair down and takes a walk on the mild side every now and then. But that’s not the point.

I was behaving the best I could, given the information I had.

Isn’t that what it’s all about, in the end?

photo: iamyourpopenow on flickr

When have you caught yourself holding a resentment? And how did you move past it?

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6 Responses to ­­What a Simple Email Taught Me About Love

  1. Karen October 2, 2012 at 7:50 am #

    Congrats on taking the “high road” with the email.

    I always try to find better-feeling thoughts when I notice myself resenting someone. Nothing good comes from feeling bad, I’ve learned from Abraham. If I don’t “clean up” my vibration, I’m just asking for more cause for resentment, courtesy of Ye Olde Law of Attraction.

    I make it about me and feeling good rather about the other party and how much they might or might not warrant my pleasant thoughts.

    Ahhhhhhh. :)

    • Z Egloff October 2, 2012 at 9:33 am #

      Hi Karen,

      Thank you! It certainly felt better to me, as you point out. It was also interesting for me to note that my entire attitude toward this particular person changed when I started acting better. Again, nothing to do with anything they had done, just a change of perspective from my part. Like magic!

      That’s awesome that you’re able to shift your thoughts in relation to others and feel better as a result. As you know, I’m also a fan of Abe and have found their teachings to be invaluable.

      Here’s to better-feeling thoughts!


  2. Diana October 9, 2012 at 7:51 am #

    Thanks Z
    You hit another homerun with your blog this week. Each week I look forward to your unique take on day to day life happenings with such a spiritual twist. Thank you. This week was so synchronistic.

    I have been in Pause from an email received that touched a deep wounded place received over a week ago. Of course in my head and in writing I have written a variety of replys. Thank God for not hitting send. Made that mistake too many times. Just sitting with it and seeing the variety of ways Spirit is helping me see a bigger perspective rather than reacting…I have learned the hard way, Hurt people, hurt people, and love people, love people…I am choosing Love. Thanks for the reminder.
    In gratitude

    • Z Egloff October 9, 2012 at 11:42 am #

      Hi Diana,

      Thank you for your comments. I love it when sychronicity happens – this post and your life!

      Kudos to you for sitting in the Pause place. I guess that’s one of the wonderful benefits of email. We have the opportunity to wait before we reply. Thank you for sharing your email story. I’m glad you were able to choose love. :)


  3. Marcy October 9, 2012 at 2:30 pm #

    Great reminder to “check in” before following our ego’s way of engaging with folks. I recently received an email that I didn’t feel was sent with love and it has caused a significant bump in the friendship. The person interacted with me as if I had done something wrong to her. The tone of her email was clearly angry and I was to be punished! The sad thing is – my words and actions that caused her email lashing were innocent and came from a place of genuine support of her. What I find sad is her belief that I would ever do or say anything to harm her. If she had seen me as beloved, perhaps this divide we’re experiencing could have been avoided. I can pretty easily practice Radical Forgiveness and let things go but this one has a hold on me. The good thing is – I’m laying low and not causing any more damage by sending off a less-than-loving email. I pray for Grace…

    • Z Egloff October 11, 2012 at 11:59 am #

      Hi Marcy,

      Sounds like a tough one. It also sounds like a good idea to lay low for now. And praying for Grace is always a good thing!

      My experience with email is that it can get really tricky sometimes. Absent of the context of voice and facial expressions, etc., there can be room for all kinds of hurt feelings. Learning to approach the whole endeavor with love is key – but that can also be challenging when feelings are hurt. That’s why I love your prayer for Grace – leading back to love, where everything begins and ends. :)


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